Saving Janavi

Janavi
Janavi before she got sick

 

❀SAVING  JANAVI

 ❥ Please help us find 350 people able to give $100, so that we can reach our goal ❥

I am taking care of my sister Janavi who has been ill and in terrible pain for 6 years. She has been diagnosed with Complex Regional Pain Syndrome, Cachexia (wasting), and Abdominal Adhesions which we think are actually systemic.  During much of her illness she weighed under 100 pounds.  Now she is getting worse.  Because of the intensity of her pain, she shakes badly and can barely eat even when she is very hungry.  She weighs 93 pounds.  I am afraid that she is going to die.

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Janavi has no pain relief because she gets dangerous reactions to most pain meds. She is still looking for a solution. She has never given up.  She wants so badly to just have a normal life and do things for herself.  Except for going to the Emergency Room, she hasn’t been outside for over a year.

My goal:

❥ We want to find ways to substantially reduce Janavi’s pain.  Janavi and I have worked hard to make her life bearable.  But her symptoms are racing ahead of us.  She is rapidly getting worse and we need to find more help as fast as possible.

❥ We want to start a CrowdMed  account for her. CrowdMed uses crowd sourcing to help diagnose and cure patients who can’t afford a team of specialists.  Since Janavi’s situation is becoming increasingly desperate I want to sign her up for their top-level plan.  This will cost $2,996 for four months.
❥ We believe she absolutely has to get some serious genetic testing.

She is struggling with her current expenses.

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The major expenses, which we can’t afford anymore, are Janavi’s mounting home-care expenses and uncovered medical expenses.  Almost all of her medications are not covered by Medicaid. She has been declared disabled by the government but can’t get help with long term care from Medicaid, basically because she is not living on the street.  She can only walk short distances and can only stand up for 30 seconds at a stretch.   

♥︎ Please help. Please give as much as you can and help us find 350 to give $100. ♥︎

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I love my beautiful little sister.  I want her to get her life back so badly.  Please help me save her.

Best Wishes,

Sue Held

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Janavi weighing 91 pounds

❥Our God-mother wrote this about Janavi

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A graduate of Goddard College, where she studied poetry, photography and media, Janavi Held was an up-and-coming writer and photographer when she was stricken at age 46 with an illness that now, six years later, is still debilitating her so that she cannot walk up or down stairs without help, she can only walk short distances around the house, and can only stand up for less than a minute at a time, and can’t sit in a car, or cook. She made the usual traditional medical rounds, tests, consultations and treatments, plus sessions with a myriad of healers and herbal remedies, but to no avail. Her condition has been labeled Complex Regional Pain Syndrome and Internal Adhesions, but nothing has been able to ease her constant pain or progressive weakness.

Last fall her condition worsened, the pain increased and her weight plummeted to 95 pounds. After an ambulance ride to the hospital, a forty-eight hour stay and a whole battery of tests, she left the hospital in worse pain; they could do nothing for her. 

Two and a half ago her sister Sue took Janavi her into her home in Colorado and set up a bedroom for her. Sue works full time but devotes much of her time to Janavi’s care. Because of Janavi’s worsening condition (she can barely walk at all, is in constant pain, and using her arms has become very painful as well), they have been forced to pay a home care agency to take care of Janavi and support Sue with other household tasks. In order to pay for home care and cover incidental expenses, as well as uncovered medical expenses, they need at least $15,000 a year. Sue’s salary cannot cover this additional cost. The only coverage Janavi has is Medicaid. 

Janavi is such a talented, spiritual soul. During these years of her illness, Janavi took refuge in her practice of Bhakti yoga which she had embarked on when she was nineteen. Her faith and persistence enabled her to write Letters to My Oldest Frienda book of poetry and photography.  This book of poems and photography that she produced in the years since her disease struck are so beautiful. In 2017, two of her poems were shortlisted for the prestigious Hamilton House International Poetry Prize and where included in a book entitled Eternity.

Now, she can barely type or read because of the persistent pain. These sisters, whose parents are gone, need help in order to survive.

Janavi refers to me as “her fairy godmother.”  I wish I had the power to disappear her pain.

~ Marcia Newfield

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A message from Janavi

https://womenspiritualpoetry.blogspot.com/2018/06/i-am-still-here-by-janavi-held.html

Janavi held
Photographic Collage by Janavi Held

~More of Janavi’s art and writing~

https://www.facebook.com/LetterstoMyOldestFriendbyJanaviHeld/
https://letterstomyoldestfriend.com
https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/17044508.Janavi_Held
https://www.youtube.com/user/janavi108/featured
https://theunattachedair.wordpress.com

https://www.instagram.com/janavi108/
https://twitter.com/Janavi108
https://www.gofundme.com/saving-janavi

https://womenspiritualpoetry.blogspot.com/search?q=Janavi

Link to her book on amazon:
https://www.amazon.com/Letters-Oldest-Friend-Janavi-Held/dp/0986240338

♥︎Amazon author profile♥︎

https://www.amazon.com/Janavi-Held/e/B074CMRWB6/ref=dp_byline_cont_book_1

 ❥ Please help us find 350 people able to give $100, so that we can reach our goal ❥

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 ❥Thank you friends❥

Two Poems for Autumn by Janavi Held

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Memory

 

I’ve walked so far
and gotten nowhere.
I contain endless memories
yet I own nothing.

My heart knows
the falling out
the falling down
the falling away

it remembers breaking
and dreams of ascending
and the endless labors
which daily life is famous for.

Titanic, lying memories
forfeiting time
lay in shards
at my feet.

My eyes clarify
without the nescience
of those terrestrial daydreams
and an ancient aria

I forgot to look for
shouts louder now
from the inside
of my temporary heart.

Janavi Held © 2017

The ePub of my book is now available:
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Softcover & Hardcover available on Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/Letters-Oldest-Friend-J…/…/0986240338

Shattered Time

The Land

The land-
she does not
know ownership
nor boundaries
languages
nor skin
moving where she will
inside or out
of our impositions
she takes
the sun
from all corners
and the rain
from all directions.

~ Janavi Held © 2017

ice and humming bird

Excerpt from Martin Luther King Jr. Nobel speech

“Yet, in spite of these spectacular strides in science and technology, and still unlimited ones to come, something basic is missing. There is a sort of poverty of the spirit which stands in glaring contrast to our scientific and technological abundance. The richer we have become materially, the poorer we have become morally and spiritually. We have learned to fly the air like birds and swim the sea like fish, but we have not learned the simple art of living together as brothers.”

-Martin Luther King Jr. Nobel speech

IN THE SEA WITH TRAFFIC

Monsoon Dreams

snow black swan

 

Monsoon Dreams

Bleached and tattered
bark of tree
leaves mired in wild wind
endless sights
of fragrant meadows
transparence filtering
flying pollen
and wet laden clouds
with white
and gray
monsoon dreams
inside atoms
resides the
restless
Master
playing
in a forest
of His
own making.

Janavi Held © 2017

My book of poetry is now available for pre-order:
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Divine Names

Divine Names

Your divine
Names wander
into my words
my open mouth
drinking that
temptation is
utterly fed here
sitting under another
spring sky.

We have been
together for so long
yet, during the cold,
wet winter
I forgot to be happy
forgot the feeling
of Your warm air
on my skin
and how
Your flowers
make me laugh.
And today
I can’t remember
why I left You
forsaking the
authenticity
of our eternal
friendship.

Janavi Held © 2017

Somewhere Seasons

Soaked

Soaked

 

A dead sea soaks

in memory

its form

now shapeless

has far to go

to be lost to

the little bits of

thought still

swimming its

dry banks.

 

My thoughts swell

memories tremble there

old incomplete sentences

structured in timeless

yawning, titanic clouds

blocking the realness of

now.

 

Janavi Held © 2017

 

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